UNFORGETTABLE MOMENT

[12th of October 9:41pm] After months of not doing anything, today finally I have something more productive to do. Today is the first class for this semester after a while. I had to study at home which also called as Online Distance Learning(ODL) due to Movements Control Order(MCO) to avoid letting ourselves being affected by the virus that has taken the whole world by storm and also took many innocent lives and other people careers. Now let's continue back to my life. Yesterday night I spent my time playing quite a lot of games and watched lots of videos on Youtube knowing that yesterday will be the last day of having fun without worrying about anything. Then I slept. But no. When you said you're going to sleep, that doesn't mean you WILL go to sleep. It means that you will lay yourself on bed, being cozy while playing your phone. Put all of your worries aside. I did that. Scrolling through my phone watching ENHYPEN (A new boy group under the BE:LIFT company which is the collaboration of Big Hit company and CJEM created based on the survival show called 'I-LAND'. I watched them until... What time? I don't know! Then I slept. Then my mom woke me up at 5:15am to iron her clothes and helped her getting ready for work. After sending mom, I was supposed to go back to sleep so i could have enough sleep and when i wake up, I feel like i am totally ready for the day!! However that wasn't the case here... After mom went to work, I returned to bed watching ENHYPEN again. And if you ask me, YESS I AM obsessed with them. In a good way of course. Even if i know that my class starts at 9:15am, I still refuse to sleep because i was driven away by my desires. Can you guess what time I actually slept?? I slept at 7:30am thinking I would definitely wake up as I have set up my alarm to 8:50am. When I am sleeping, I dreamt of waking up late for class but when I look at the time, it's says 18:99am.... What a weird dream, i say. But at that time it felt so real although it wasn't. And yes as what you're thinking, i'm still sleeping not realizing the time is ticking by. SUDDENLYYY!!! My sister shout out my name yelling that it was ALREADY 9:15am!!! The EXACT time my class started!!! I WAS SO FREAKING SHOCKEDD!! I didn't even get to take a shower because I overslept so i immediately set up my table and laptop and a notebook as if a storm is about to come and turn your house upside down. I opened my laptop and click the link my lecturer sent to us in whatsapp. I sent the request to my lect to get into the google meet where the class will be conducted. But it took almost half an hour waiting for my lect to accept my request. I told some of my friends about the problem and thankfully they told our lect about it and let me in. She said it is because she's presenting the do's and don't's during her class that she didn't notice my request. It was quite an unforgettable moment i had today. It was very awkward seeing myself in the camera as well as having the thought of my other classmates and our lect can see my half-asleep face HAHHAHAHA. There was actually a lot happening today but I am just going to tell you about the MOST memorable moment of the day.

Has been so long

It has been a really really realllllyyyy long time ever since my last post which is from the past two years. I missed writing but didn't get the opportunity to post something since my life has been busy for the past two years till now. The reason I've decided to post new stuff is that I realize my knowledge and fluency in English had dropped horribly. Every time I speak with my sister, I would always stutter that sometimes I feel like a downer. Now, I hoped to increase my fluency and knowledge of English. Besides that, my major excuse for hiatus was I furthered my study at Universiti Teknologi Mara also known as UiTM. I felt extremely happy because I achieved my main achievement and have made my family proud. My only concern now is I really badly want to get the dean's list for this semester. Oh, and I forgot to tell you that it is I'm currently starting my third semester for this early in the year. And I really hope that I could get the dean's list for this new semester, unlike my previous ones, I want to pay more attention and focus more on the study. Since this semester might be one of the busiest semesters, I need to manage my time wisely between my studies and my club. My club which is KEB club which involves dancing, singing, playing instruments, and acting, will hold a lot of events and programs to entertain other students and to make our club more alive and active. It was really fun joining the club because of the chance of getting to know new people and new experience especially being on stage as I have never been on it before except for the one on my 6th-grade Graduation Day. After then, I hate being on stage or presentation or anything that involves being in the center of attention. Unfortunately, the thought of it builds a few consequences. For example, I detach a lot from people and sometimes feel left out even I knew that I'm the one who created the situation. I was at fault. Secondly, I got anxiety disorder which I feel anxious a lot whenever I'm with someone thinking they might have disliked me because I don't talk much, I'm boring, I only mind my own business to the point I got really stressed out because of the voices in my head saying they don't like me, saying negative things and I always tried to fight those negative voices in which I know it's not mine but my evil side. Thirdly, I lost confidence in introducing myself, presenting which is very bad since self-confidence is required especially when you want to apply for a job and you need to come to their interviews. Self-confidence is the only thing I need to fix. Without it, I am pretty sure I wouldn't survive in this hell-like world. Well, it's getting pretty late and I could feel my eyes are getting because of the sleepiness. Thank you for reading my blog!! Love yourself, Be Yourself, Peace!!

I want to improve my English!!!!

Hello guys. I know it has been a very long time since i lasted publish one of my post.  I'm hiatus because a lot of things that needs to be done especially before my university result  come out. I'm feeling both anxious and excited to further study at a university in i already forgot what major i applied for but i just hope that i'll pass. I don't wanna write much since i have run out of idea on topics i wanna talk about but i will try hard to find any kinds of topic to share with y'all. Heheh. Well, the actual reason i'm continuing my life as a so-called blogger is because i want to improve my knowledge in English more before starting my university life. I figured that the more i watch or listen to something that have nothing to do with English, the worse it became. Hopefully, i can be as a good speaker as my two sisters who are very good in English. With a blink of an eye 👀, we are already at the very end of our topic. Sorry, it's a bit long but i put so much thoughts while writing this and i hope you have a great time at your university and for those who still a high school student, good luck and set your main goal which is make your family proud, okay? 😉 Goodbye!! 💜💚 And peace!!

What not fully Happened today?

              Actually, for this post, I am going to talk about what happened today but not all of them cuz apparently, I feel tired and sleepy. Well. let's just continue the topic. Today, my brother and I skipped school because we were late and it was all my fault. Truthfully, I woke up to help my getting ready and continued my nap the moment she went out for work. I thought it would be a short nap but apparently, it was long. Pretty much I feel totally great after a long nap, however, the feelings I hated the most starts to take over my body. So I decided that we should just skip school. Coincidentally, my throat sore since yesterday night and that would be perfect for my excuse. I then started to surf the internet and of course, the first that I would surf is Youtube. I watched BTS (i bet you know who BTS is) on my laptop. Then, my brother woke up and went straight to the bathroom. TBH, every morning or every time I watched YTB, my brother would suddenly wake up and joined me is what I hated the most, especially when I am shipping my OTP on YTB. I know it is bad to feel that way but it was some kind of a privacy to me so I would literally feel awkward. I once caught my sister watching her OTP on her phone and immediately she said either "get out!!" or  " What?!" while glaring at me with a shy, smiling face. From that moment, I can tell that she was really embarrassed. That was the exact same thing how I feel the moment my brother caught me watching my OTP. Well actually, there are a few incidents that happened today but as I said just now, I am tired AF so maybe I will as if continue some other time. BYEEEE!!!!!! 💚💚💗😕😔😔😔

My opinion against 2017

           Good afternoon or perhaps evening guys!!! How was your year? Is it fun or bad? With just a blink, a brand new year came. Honestly, I am not pretty sure about what will happen this year and I don't think that this year will interest me because this year is a very challenging year. I have a very important test and of course, we have loads of presentation to do. I don't know what kind of people loves presentation because I really hate it. Probably because I feel shy to talk in front of people. I don't know why but I always wonder why does this year feel so slow. Is it because I don't like this year? I want to share with you about my school life for this year. I got in the same class with those hot stuff for no reason. Fortunately, my friends are with me and so I don't feel uncomfortable. However, there are so many things happened in that class especially during presentations. They treat us badly or probably ignore us like we're invisible. And when we are doing our presentation, some of them would say "speak louder! I can't hear you!" and some of them doesn't even listen and I was like 'what the hell is wrong with these humans!!' But please don't underestimate because I don't actually talk like that, I was just trying to tell you what I feel at that moment. At that time, I thought to myself 'Humans are stingier than animals' which all of us thought that animals are bad and humans are good. I know some people would think that way. I really hope I can move to the other school because I hate my classmates. They antis us just because we are loud. But we're only being like that when the class is free which means there are no teachers in the class but we're still quiet when the teachers are teaching. They probably thought that they're popular so what they do, no one will judge even the dumbest thing. I only hope that nothing bad will come to me a school and I hope that I will be confident in any presentation. Let's just live a great life for this year!!

Relationship

Sup, guys!! This is my first post for this year. I am gonna talk about 'Relationship'. There are three types of relationship. The first one is Love, the second one is Friendship and last but not least is Family. 

    Love is not that important relationship. It's just you know coupled, and then break up and then for a few months they will get back together. It's like repeating the same stupid thing which is lame to me. For me, I'd better being alone than repeating that stupid thing.  

     Okay, now let's talk about the second relationship. To have a friend beside us is a good thing. We need to have a friend to accompany us or to share stuff. However, We cannot trust people easily especially our friends. Why? Because they are the people who knew our secrets and they can also spread our biggest secret to the whole school. So, you need to be really careful with your friend even they are your closest friends. 

        Last but not least is family. Family is the most important relationship that we must take care of. Other than friends, our family knows us better than any other people in this world and they are the only people who understand us. We can never break the bond because the bond is too strong to be broken. Love is meaningful especially when it comes to family. When you get older, you will miss the wonderful moment you have created with your family. 

Never give up!!

Hey Guys!! Let's just start what i'm going to talk about. Lots of people gives up in their life just because no one likes them, someone dumped them and many other things. FYI or as you know, i'm one of them. The first one. I kept on thinking about people doesn't like me unlike my other siblings. people loves them even guys. I know i am not as pretty as they are but i am a human, a person who have emotions. You guys probably think that " Why do you have to be emotional? I don't give a shit." Maybe some of you would think that. Okay, let's get back to the topic. You know, you can't easily give up on something that you're unable because you'll be able to do it. Just believe that you can do it. Giving up is a bad thing unless you tried many times but it still doesn't work well. I, also gave up easily and that is my main problem and i really want to get rid of it. Unfortunately, i am a hot-headed person and that's why i'll get mad easily and if i get mad, i'll give up. Don't be like me because i'm not as good as you think i am. You know what, my mind is a mess right now and i can't even think what to write so i guess this is the end. So... Bye!! xoxo

Date

Hello peeps! How are you these days? I'm fine as always. Got no idea what to talk about. But, today i am going to talk about... Well actually, i am going to write about date.. I know all of you or maybe some of you are dating with your partner, eh? Well, all of my friends have a partner to date and of course the person they're dating is a guy and not a girl, and you know that. Sorry, too many 'and' in this post. However, i have never been dating since i was born and you guys might think "why?". It's because i'm not a type of person that people can easily get. Well you know what? Let's just say that i am not a social person unlike my friends. They are really.. you know, social people. Well, they are like a person who would befriend with various type of people. Well, it's not that i don't want to date.. It's just that i don't like whenever i date with someone and then something happened that will make my relationship ruined. I hate it!! I hope that i will get someone to date and our relationship will be still until the end of the world or maybe afterlife. But, i know that's impossible because it's hard to find our soulmate that fast. But who knows, maybe God will make that happened to me. Only God what's best for me. :) Well, actually there is someone special in my heart and his name is... a secret. I wish that he will be my soulmate. ><

PT3 Result!!

Hello guys!! It's been a long time since i blogged and right now it feels weird because i'm starting it over all of a sudden. I want to talk about my PT3 result and it's just a couple of weeks left. Just imagining how i take the result makes my heart almost fell out from my chest. I don't know if i did good or bad during PT3 examination but i tried. Like my sister said that if we fail, it doesn't mean we will fail forever. What she means is we have to keep trying even if it's hard and also 'Practice Makes Better!', remember? For next year, i have to join an extra class and there are a few classes but only one that i have to join. So it's hard for me to decide which class will I join. I once said to my sister that i want art class but then she said that it's hard. Why? Because we don't have to learn them, we just need the skill to sketch, draw and play with colors. But if you don't have that three skills, then it'll be hard for you to do that three things. She recommend me to join the class of accounts but i'm not pretty sure if I would be able to join the class my sister recommended for me because i'm not that good in mathematics. But hey, everything is possible if you put your faith in it but if you still feel it's impossible than everything of you is impossible. So don't ever put 'im' in your 'possible' because if you put your faith, the 'im' word will never exist. Trust me, you'll be able to do what you are unable if you vanish the 'im' word. Goodbye peeps!!

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year, Everyone! May God bless us all!! Can't believe i'm 15 this year. I hope i can get great marks and prove to all people out there. Can't wait to start a new beginning in 2015!! You guys must be really excited to begin a new year, right? There's a lot of fireworks today. I thought it was raining. XD